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A Love Surrendered

By Julie Lessman

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The LORD is my shepherd;
I shall not want.
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures:
he leadeth me beside the still waters.
He restoreth my soul:
he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness
for his name's sake.
—Psalm 23:1-3

A LOVE SURRENDERED

Chapter One

Boston, Massachusetts, May 1932

So help me, if I get caught tonight, Peggy Pankow’s name is “Mud.” Susannah Grace Kennedy braced herself against the cool of the salty sea air—and her guilt—and hurried down the dark street toward Revere Beach, almost regretting she’d let her new friend talk her in to sneaking out of the house. A crescent moon rose while the waning glow of dusk cast purple shadows on the boardwalk where streetlamps were just beginning to glow. People milled on the seashore, mere silhouettes back-dropped by a fuscia sky glinting across restless waters. The sound of music drifted in the air along with the scent of the sea, and suddenly a tingle of excitement trumped any worry she had.
“Hey, Suzi-Q,” Peggy had said after class last week, “my big sis says we can tag along to Ocean Pier on Saturday.” Her brown eyes had sparkled with the dare of adventure. “Wanna go?”
Suzi-Q. Susannah winced, the little-girl nickname her family had coined a painful reminder of just how much her life had changed in three months. Her smile was patient. “Peg, it’s Anna now, remember? Not Suzi-Q or Suz or Susannah or Gracie or anything else that reminds me of a past I’m trying to forget.” She battled the familiar malaise that always accompanied thoughts of her once happy home. “Besides,” she said, her voice trailing to a whisper, “I’m not that girl anymore.”
“Okay, okay, but I refuse to call you Anna—too stuffy.” Peg pursed her lips. “I should call you Dr. Pepper Girl the way you guzzle the stuff when Aunt Eleanor’s not around, but with that strawberry blonde hair and cute freckled face, you’re an Annie through and through.”
“Annie” chewed on her thumbnail. “I don’t know, Peg—you don’t think ‘Annie’ sounds too young or rural?” she asked, anxious to shed her small-town roots. “After all, I’m a city girl now, looking for a new name and a new life.”
“Nope, it’s perfect.” Peggy wriggled her brows. “And you mean love life, don’t you?”
Annie’s stomach dipped and rolled like the seagulls over Revere Beach, and she gulped down a sliver of nail. Love life. Not just sterile words written in her diary this time back in Badger, Iowa, or in one of her many handwritten novels. Nope, this would be real flesh-and-blood kisses from real flesh-and-blood men. She swallowed hard. “Uh … maybe.”
“No maybes about it, kiddo,” Peggy said with a wink. “A deal is a deal. You tutored me in algebra? I tutor you in love. What kind of romance writer will you be without research? Not to mention our bet—you swore you’d get your first kiss at Revere Beach or I get to keep your favorite sweater, remember?” Peggy sighed when Annie hesitated. “For criminy’s sake, Annie-Lou, you’re a woman who’s never been kissed, and this is your chance. Besides, Ocean Pier is the perfect place to lose your heart.” She elbowed Annie in the side, eyes agleam with mischief. “Or your reputation. What do you say—wanna go?”
Did she want to go? To Revere Beach? The Boston hot spot Maggie raved about in her letters from college? A shiver of excitement tingled as anticipation swelled like the waves on the shore. What seventeen year-old-girl wouldn’t want to go to Revere Beach? Especially after her older sister’s chatter about the thrill of the Cyclone Rollercoaster, the romantic Hipprodome Carousel, or moonlight strolls on Ocean Pier with Steven O’Connor, Maggie’s old flame?
Goodness, Annie had boxes of Maggie’s old letters hidden away, boasting of good times at Ocean Pier with the “gang.” Names like Joe Walsh and Joanie Pankow, Rita, Celeste and Stan were emblazoned in her memory. A small-town transplant mid-senior year, Annie had felt like an like an outcast, but the moment she’d heard Peggy’s unusual name in roll call, she’d sought her out, elated Peggy had a sister named Joanie. Anxious to connect with anyone who’d known Maggie, Annie was thrilled when Peggy took her under her wing, transforming her drab small-town look into one more acceptable and stylish. The two became friends, not only because Peggy was crazy and fun, but because she was the key to Maggie’s past. A past Annie had no inclination to share with Peggy just yet. No, not when Maggie’s later letters indicated a rift in the gang, convincing her Rita and Joanie bore a monumental grudge.
Did she want to go to Revere Beach with Maggie’s old gang? Annie sighed. More than anything in the world. After all, everybody loved Revere Beach.
Everybody but Aunt Eleanor, that is, who’d forbidden her to go. A gust of wind brought her back to the dark streets en route to the beach, flapping her bulky cardigan and chilling her to the bone. A group of men whistled as she passed, and Annie instinctively wrapped her sweater close, wishing she’d asked Peggy for a ride instead of walking to the pier alone. But she couldn’t risk leaving the house before Aunt Eleanor retired, so she’d waited in her room until dark. Because as Peggy had so artfully argued, what Aunt Eleanor didn’t know wouldn’t hurt her. Annie’s palms began to sweat despite the cool of the night. I just hope it doesn’t hurt me …
“Hey, doll, what’s your hurry?” Two men strolled from the shadows of a dark alley and blocked her path, forcing a gasp to choke in her throat. One delivered a lazy smile distorted by the flicker of the tungsten lamp overhead, his white shirt and suspenders rolled to reveal muscular arms. Smoke furled from the cigarette glowing red in his teeth. “Well, looky here, Grove, this little dish is all by herself. Ya need some company, sweet thing?”
Annie faltered back, cigarette smoke and garbage from the alley making her as nauseous as the man before her. Her gaze darted down the empty street she’d taken as a shortcut, and her throat went dry. She was too far from the crowded pier where the sounds of the beach might drown out her cry—the roar of the waves, the screech of coaster rails, music from the ballrooms along the boardwalk. Her throat convulsed as she cinched her sweater tight. “Uh … no, thank you—I’m meeting friends at the dance pavilion. They’re waiting now.”
The man called Grove sidled close to drape an arm over her shoulder. “Come on, doll, you’ll have more fun with Harv and me than you will them. What’s your name, sweetheart?”
Fear crawled up her windpipe to steal her air. “P-please, no—” She twisted free, but Harv jerked her back, his callous hand smothering her cry. Eyelids flickering, she grew faint as he casually forced her toward the alley. “Come on, baby,” he whispered, “you wouldn’t be here by your lonesome if you weren’t looking for a little fun.” He reeled her in, attempting to grind his wet mouth against hers, and she dropped her purse, lashing her head to the side to avoid his lips. Her stomach curdled at the stench of liquor on his breath, but when she thrashed and tried to scream again, vomit rose in her throat. God, please, no—
Harv pinned her arms behind. “Whoo-ee, she’s a regular she-cat, ain’t she though?”
“Let her go …” A hiss bit into the night, as deadly as the lash of a whip.
Harv spun around, muscled arm looped to Annie’s waist as he squinted in the dark where a shadow emerged, not twenty feet away. Annie cried out when Harv jerked her close, his fingers gouging her side. “Yeah? Says who?”
The stranger’s face was obscured by the night, but the dominance of his tone issued a warning that quickly loosened Harv’s hold. “Says an officer of the law, wise guy.” With slow, deliberate motion, he reached in his coat jacket to open a battered leather wallet where a nickel badge glinted in the lamplight. “Let her go—now.”
A guttural laugh iced Annie’s skin when the man called Grove ambled forward and spit, fingers sliding along the back of his waistband. With a faint swish, a blade shot forth from a knife in his hand, and Harv muffled another scream from Annie’s throat. “You ain’t got no authority here, flatfoot, so scram.”
“Got all the authority I need, dirt bag,” the officer said quietly, the lightning click of his revolver faster than the hitch of Annie’s breath. “Had a lousy day, scum ball, so I’m just itching for a reason to vent. I suggest you drop it real slow.”
Grove hesitated for several seconds before slamming the knife down, his surly look as sharp as the blade that clattered to the sidewalk. Two-fisting the gun, the officer eased toward Harv, arms extended and aim level. “Not going to tell you again—let her go.”
With a muttered curse, Harv shoved her away. Annie stumbled forward, and the officer steadied her with a firm grasp before calmly steering her behind. His voice was as steely as the gun in his hand. “I suggest you lowlifes call it a night ‘cause if I find you anywhere near the beach again, you’ll be picking on fleas in a jail cell instead of little girls in the streets.”
“Didn’t mean no harm, officer,” Harv said quickly, his tone conciliatory even if Grove’s menacing look was not. “Just thought Little Miss might need some company, that’s all. Come on, Grove, Ann Street’s got better action than this.” The men backed away, their glares prickling Annie’s skin until they disappeared down the alley.
The air rushed from her lungs, body quivering like the lights looping the boardwalk, swaying in the breeze. She peeked up at her savior, studying his broad back as he watched the men slink away. He dwarfed her with his height, maybe six foot two to her five foot one, and his hair was as dark as the umber sky. She exhaled loudly when he holstered his gun and bent to pick up the knife, feeling safe for the first time all night. “Thank you so much offi—“
He turned, lamplight illuminating blue eyes that singed her to the spot. “What the devil are you doing walking this street alone at night?”
She blinked, shocked as much by his handsome face as his sullen look.
“What’s your name?” he asked. A tic twittered in his hard-chiseled cheek, indicating he was clearly perturbed. “And how old are you?”
“A-Annie … and I’m seventeen … almost e-eighteen.”
His shuttered gaze traveled the length of her, down her body and up, settling on her face with obvious disapproval. “You don’t look seventeen to me,” he muttered. He slacked a hip. “Does your mother know where you are?”
Her chin shot up. “My mother’s dead,” she snapped, the fire in her eyes challenging the nasty look in his. “And you don’t look like an officer either.”
She heard his heavy exhale as he tunneled blunt fingers through meticulously groomed hair, disrupting several dark strands that toppled over his forehead. The tight line of his angular jaw softened just a bit. “Look, I’m sorry, miss, but you have no business walking these streets alone at night. Do you have any idea what could have happened if I hadn’t come along?”
His question unnerved her, and she clutched her arms to her waist, moisture pricking at what might have happened if not for him. She swallowed hard and nodded, dropping her gaze.
“If you were my sister, I’d cart you home right now and let your father deal with you.”
Her head jerked high, temper charred once again. “Well, I’m not, so why don’t you go bully somebody else?”
His eyes narrowed. “You’ve got a smart mouth and not a lot of brains, you know that, kid? Your daddy needs to keep an eye on you.”
Her chin lashed up. “Yeah? Well, he’s dead too, are you happy?”
He blinked, lips parted in shock. His voice was a rasp. “You’re an orphan?”
The sound of that awful word stabbed anew, and anger resurged. “Yes.” She fought off the sting of tears. “Can I go now?”
“Wait—” His hand stayed her arm, his voice suddenly kind. “Where do you live?”
“With my aunt,” she said quietly, chin quivering. “And my little sister.”
With another heavy blast of air, he stooped to retrieve her purse and nudged it into her hands. The gentleness of his voice sparked more moisture in her eyes. “Look, kid, this area’s not safe after dark for any woman alone, seventeen or seventy, so promise you won’t do this again.”
She nodded, but her cheeks burned at the way he made her feel—seven instead of seventeen. Her gaze dropped. Just like Aunt Eleanor.
“So, where ya headed?”
She hooked a stray curl over her ear, careful to avoid his gaze “To meet my friends at Ocean Pier Dance Pavilion,” she whispered. Tucking her purse under her arm, she pinched her thick sweater closed before gingerly backing away. “Thank you, officer ...”
“Wait.” His touch jolted her, forcing her eyes to span wide. A hint of a smile played on his lips as he released her. “I’m going that way, so I’ll walk with you.”
“No!” Heat swarmed her cheeks. A police escort in front of my friends? “I mean, I’m late, officer, but thank you again.” Darting away before he could object, she sprinted across Atlantic Avenue onto the sandy beach as if she were escaping the ghost of Aunt Eleanor herself. She almost tumbled over a stray piece of driftwood, but she dare not stop till she reached the cobblestone landing of the pier. Chest huffing, she glanced back. Her eyes scanned the dusky beach and boulevard for any sign of him among the smattering of people and autos, but it was as if he’d disappeared into thin air. A sigh shivered from her lips, tinged with more than a little guilt. She put a shaky hand to her eyes, squeezing them shut. I should have never come. Never defied Aunt Eleanor. Never risked getting caught.
And never grow up?
Her eyelids popped open. No! Adjusting her sweater, she sucked in sea air like sustenance, determined she would do this. Needed to do this. It was bad enough Aunt Eleanor treated her like a child after uprooting her and her sister from their tiny Iowa town where her parents had died, forcing them into the care of a Catholic maiden aunt who didn’t approve of them or their protestant faith. Nor did it help she was petite with an innocent face that made her look fifteen rather than the eighteen years she’d celebrate in two months. Goodness, she wasn’t a little girl anymore no matter what Aunt Eleanor thought. She was Susannah Grace Kennedy, a woman who’d spent the last two years caring for her little sister Glory after Mama died while keeping the house up for Daddy.
Daddy. She steeled her jaw and fought the prick of moisture that stung whenever she thought of the man she’d all but worshipped, followed by the anger that always rose on its heels. Anger at his God—the same God she’d espoused herself until three months ago. A God who’d snatched the life of her mother three years past, despite the prayers of her minister father who’d devoted his life to him. Until God took him away too, dead from cancer a year and half after her mother, robbing her and her sister of his love, his kindness, his protection …
“Do you have any idea what could have happened if I hadn’t come along?”
Goose bumps prickled, reminding her how close she’d come to evil. Yes, someone protected her tonight, but she refused to give the credit to God. Where was he when her parents needed him? No, when her father died, she buried her faith along with him, intent on living without God, just like she had to do without her parents. Thrusting her chin up, she swiped at her eyes and continued down the wood-slatted pier. She was tired of being the good girl, obedient to a fault—what good had it done? Her lips cemented into a firm line. In a few short weeks, she’d graduate high school and then off to college in the fall, the ideal time to leave her childhood behind. She pushed the hair from her eyes with shaky fingers. And a God I no longer trust …
Music and laughter carried on the ocean breeze as she darted down the crowded pier where couples snuggled and kissed, but Annie was too shaken to notice. Her stomach still roiled at the memory of Grove’s hands on her body, his mouth on her cheek, and all she wanted to do was go home. But that was no longer an option. She had no choice but to wait for Peggy’s sister to drive her home, well aware her body still quivered from the shock of the near attack.
“Get a hold of yourself,” she whispered, sucking in sea air to calm down and forget about Harv and Grove. After all, this was her chance to grow up and experience Maggie’s world, and by golly, she intended to do it despite Aunt Eleanor’s objections. Unbidden, thoughts of her rescuer invaded her mind and she shuddered, mortified at the prospect of being seen with an officer in tow. Heaven knows she’d be the youngest among Peggy’s sister’s group anyway. The last thing she needed was more scorn about her age or small-town upbringing.
With a catch of her breath, Annie slowed, jaw sagging while her eyes slowly scanned up, thoughts of Harv and Grove all but forgotton. Mouth agape, she stood mesmerized by the towering sight before her, hand fluttering to her chest. Oh my, but it was grand! Everything Maggie had written and more.
Jutting high in the sky at the end of a pier, the famous Ocean Pier Dance Pavilion rose from the water like a glittering fairy-tale castle, terraces and towers aglow with endless strings of lights. Maggie told her the pier had been built in 1911 and extended 1,450 feet over the water, beckoning to a palatial structure housing dance marathons, a sumptuous cafe and a roller skating rink. Light glimmered across the bay, reflecting the revelry inside, and Annie’s heart squeezed at the memory of a big sister she idolized and seldom saw, now living in California. Maggie had always been dazzled by lights, first the big-city glimmer of Chicago where she was born and raised until college, to the glitz and glitter of Hollywood where she soon hoped to be a star. At Radcliffe, she seldom came home for summers after they moved to Iowa because she’d despised Badger, but her letters had always been filled with the shimmer and shine of Ocean Pier.
Annie craned her neck to stare at the arched pillars overhead with a reverent sigh, more determined than ever to follow in Maggie’s footsteps. Squaring her shoulders, she opened the door with a grunt, grateful the officer hadn’t followed her to the pier. Heavens, if she was going to succeed tonight with new friends, it certainly wouldn’t be in the custody of some stiff-faced arm of the law. His memory suddenly prompted an odd quiver in her stomach, and Annie swallowed hard, hoping she’d never have to see him again. No matter how handsome he was.
***
Steven shook his head, watching her bolt away as if he were the one who attempted to accost her. Little girls—they were as bad as the big ones. She was darn lucky he’d happened along and been armed, something he usually avoided while off duty. But he’d had an uneasy feeling tonight about the beach, which tended to attract trouble on weekends, and any girl with half a brain had sense not to walk it alone. Which pretty much confirmed the kid was either brainless or had her head in the clouds.
Heaving a sigh, he made his way to the phone booth at the end of the boardwalk to report the thugs who’d bothered the young woman. His mouth crooked. Make that ‘little girl. One with a smart mouth who belonged home in bed on a Friday night, not at a dance hall. He placed the call and hung up, hand fused to the receiver as he squinted at the Ocean Pier Ballroom, a blur of lights at the end of a pier he’d walked more times than he could count. His eyes trailed into a faraway stare while memories teased and taunted, endless strings of lights swaying and sparkling like Maggie when he’d whirled her on the dance-room floor. Warm, steamy nights spent holding her, kissing her on the veranda, making plans for a future that would never come to pass. A dull ache surfaced in his chest. Chilling proof that despite the fact he’d been the one who’d ended it, Maggie Kennedy still had a hold on his heart.
He shoved his hands in his pockets and ambled toward the pier, his mind a million miles away—not unlike the woman he’d loved. Still loved, if truth be told, despite being a full coast away. Almost three years had passed since he’d ended it—the night he told her he loved her but couldn’t see her again. It wasn’t fair, he knew, but he’d blamed her for the rift with his father, a rift so violent, it had almost stolen his father away. Steven’s eyes shuttered closed, the memory twisting his gut. Because of Maggie, he and his father had shouted awful things at each other, hateful words that not only threatened his father’s life, but buried Steven’s beneath a mountain of guilt. Guilt so strong, it enabled him to finally turn Maggie away and embark on a quest to restore his father’s trust. His lips thinned. And mine.
A familiar melancholy settled on his shoulders like the mist over the bay, and he opened his eyes, suddenly missing Maggie so much the air stilled in his lungs. The music of her laughter, the dare of her smile, the glimmer of tease in eyes so blue, they’d laid claim to his soul. And his body. Heat flushed his skin and he removed his coat, slinging it over his arm with a clamp of his jaw. Confirmation once again it had never been Maggie’s fault at all, but his. He’d been the one who should’ve been strong, the man in control who placed his love for Maggie before his desires. But in the end, he’d disrespected her as much as he had his father, and the weight of shame had driven him hard—away from Maggie, his past, and the idea of ever falling in love.
Peals of laughter broke into his thoughts, and the sight of two couples flying down the wood-slatted dock brought a grin to his face. He and his friends from college used to have fun like that once. His smile was wistful. And if Joe had his way, they would again. The haunting sounds of a love song drifted over the water like a fog, hazing his mind and tugging at his heart, yet another indication Joe was right. It was time to get back in the game, to move on and maybe fall in love. To raise Steven O’Connor from the dead, as Joe liked to say. Ocean Pier loomed before him in all its glory while strains of Stardust floated in the air, luring him with its magic as if sent by Joe himself.
Truth be told, I could use a little magic right about now, Steven thought with a grimace. He yanked on the massive door beneath the lit portico, holding it open as several pretty girls walked through. The scent of perfume tempted his senses while the music taunted his soul, convincing him once and for all his resurrection was imminent. With a deep inhale, he made his way through the crowd, surprised he was actually glad to be here. After all, he thought, hating to admit Joe was right … he wasn’t dead yet.
***
“Where on earth have you been?” Peggy latched on to Annie’s arm the second she stepped in the grand foyer and for a moment, Annie was too stunned to respond. Her mouth hung open so far, she could have trapped mosquitoes out on the pier. The magnitude of the foyer alone stole both her words and the breath from her lungs. A vaulted ceiling seemed to rise to the sky, flanked by palatial balconies teeming with people. Ornate gold chandeliers spilled from above, lending an ethereal air to the grand and spacious room. Annie sighed, hand to her chest, quite certain there was nothing like this in Badger, or in all of Iowa for that matter, and in one reverent intake of breath, she silently blessed Aunt Eleanor for bringing them to Boston.
“Annie!” Enormous brown eyes assessed her with concern. “Are you okay?”
Annie blinked to dispel the tears in her eyes. “Oh, Peg—two men tried to accost me—”
“What? Where?” Peggy’s eyes spanned wide, her short, auburn waves lending an almost pixie air to her heart-shaped face. She gave Annie a tight hug. “Good grief, are you okay?”
Annie nodded with a tight swallow. “It happened on that shortcut you showed me.”
Peggy’s jaw dropped. “For criminy sake’s, Annie, I told you to take the main streets at night, not the shortcut—you could have been killed. Tell me what happened.”
Annie reiterated the awful incident, her brush with near disaster chilling her all over again. “I was looking forward to tonight, Peg, but so far, this is the worst night of my life.”
Peg tucked a curl over Annie’s ear. “We’ll just have to make sure it ends up as the best night of your life, okay?” Her brow puckered. “Hey, you didn’t wear the makeup I gave you!”
Annie blinked. “I meant to before I left, but Aunt Eleanor was in a such a nasty mood …”
Shaking her head, Peggy rifled through her purse to retrieve her lipstick. “I swear that backwoods town of yours has addled your brain.” She glanced down at Annie’s sensible Maryjane flats and groaned. “And you wore flats?? What am I going to do with you? It’s bad enough your aunt won’t let you bob your hair, but you barely come to my chin as petite as you are, and those freckles and fresh-scrubbed face are a dead giveaway you’re straight off the farm. “Here.” Peggy bent to apply lipstick to Annie’s mouth.” Honestly, Annie, how do you plan to catch anyone’s eye when you look all of twelve?”
“I’m sorry, Peg, but I was so nervous …”
Peggy stood up to assess. “Well, there’s not much we can do about your eyes, I suppose, since I left my eye makeup at home, but at least they’re that incredible shade of green. But I did bring my powder, thank goodness. Here.” She handed Annie her compact and froze. “Wait—please tell me you wore the teal dress I suggested. You know, the one you said was too tight?”
Annie quickly unbuttoned her thick, lumpy sweater and gave her friend a tentative smile before dropping a nervous glance down at her high-necked jersey dress. She tugged at her lip, uneasy with the snug fit of the stretchy material. “I did, but not only is it too small, but it makes me feel like a little kid ‘cause I wore it at fifteen.” She glanced up, ready to rebutton the cardigan. “I don’t know, Peg, I just don’t feel comfortable in it.”
“That’s because it’s too tight, you goose. Here, let me fix it.” Mischief twitched on her lips as she undid Annie’s top three buttons to create a flapped-collar affect that certainly confirmed Annie was no little girl. Peggy let loose with a low whistle. “Atta-girl! You may look fresh as cream with that dewy skin and baby-soft hair, but once you take that hideous cardigan off, you won’t be the only one uncomfortable, trust me.” She exchanged Annie’s sweater for the compact. “Here, sweetie-pie, powder your pretty nose and let’s go—we’ve got hearts to break.”
Ignoring the swirl of nerves in her stomach, Annie sucked in a deep breath and eyed herself in the mirror. “Okay, Peg, wish me luck—tonight is the night I grow up.”
Peggy chuckled and clamped a hand to Annie’s arm, pulling her toward the ballroom door. “Trust me, kiddo, you won’t need any luck with that dress.”
Annie was grateful Peggy dragged her to the other side of the massive ballroom, hopefully far from the prying eyes of any stick-in-the-mud officer. It was a hive of activity that left her breathless, and even Maggie’s letters hadn’t prepared her for this. Pure magic—a fairy-tale ball where hundreds of couples moved and swayed in hypnotic motion across a gleaming wood floor. Lights were low, lending an intimate air while a mirror ball glittered overhead like diamonds in the sky. Strains of the Dorsey Brothers Orchestra Little White Lies filtered throughout, and Annie nibbled on her nail, uneasy about her white lie to Aunt Eleanor about going to bed early. She sucked in a deep breath. Well, I did, didn’t I? Lay in the bed until dark? Guilt jabbed, but she shook it off. After all, she had a right to live her own life, didn’t she?
The band eased into their version of Benny Goodman’s Help Yourself to Happiness, and a shaky smile tipped Annie’s mouth when she realized that was exactly what she was trying to do. She’d had enough heartbreak to last a lifetime, and it was time to help herself to some of the happiness Maggie had written home about. Steeling her resolve, she tagged behind Peggy as they inched along the dance floor. Mouth agape, she stared wide-eyed at couples whirling and swinging to the Lindy Hop as sweat and smiles gleamed on their faces. Warmth from sweaty bodies fairly shimmered off the floor like heat off asphalt during a Badger drought in July.
Peggy leaned to whisper in the ear of an older girl who was laughing and drinking with friends at a table littered with peanuts, popcorn and bottles of Coca-Cola. Annie’s pulse skittered when the girl rose and extended a hand. “Hi, Annie, I’m Peggy’s sister, Joanie. Peggy says you’re new to Boston and looking for fun.” She tucked an arm to Annie’s waist and smiled. “Well you came to the right place, sweetie, because any friend of Peggy’s is a friend of mine.”
Annie smiled and gulped, hardly able to believe she was here with Maggie’s old gang.
Thumping her glass on the table, Joanie turned to the group who looked to be in their mid-twenties. “Hey guys, listen up. This is Annie, and she just moved here, so let’s make her feel welcome.” Joanie waved an arm. “This is most of the gang—Rita and Celia, Joe and Stan.”
“Coca-Cola, Annie?” Joanie asked, pouring pop into one of two clean glasses.
“Just for me, sis—Annie’s a Dr. Pepper Girl.” Peggy squeezed Annie’s shoulder with a grin, lowering her voice as if it were a dirty secret. “Her aunt doesn’t allow soda in the house, so the kid sneaks it when she can.” Peggy sighed. “Unfortunately, it’s her only vice.”
“We’ll have to see what we can do about that,” Rita said with a grin. She pushed a black curl away from her Betty Boop hairstyle and winked an eye lidded with violet shadow. “What are you doing hanging out with Peggy? She’ll just get you in trouble.”
Peggy laughed and sat next to Annie, sliding Rita a smirk. “Speak for yourself, Rita, everybody knows who the bad influence is here.”
Joe stood to his feet and reached across the table to shake her hand, his smile warm in a handsome face that boasted a healthy spray of freckles. His hazel eyes seemed to twinkle, a nice complement to the sandy hair neatly slicked back. “Hi ya, Annie, where you from?”
Annie liked him immediately, which helped put her at ease despite her hesitation to divulge her rustic roots. She gave him a shy smile. “Badger, Iowa.”
Joe let loose a low whistle. “Small town, eh?”
Annie nodded, a grin sprouting on her face. “You can spit from one end to the other.”
“Well, welcome to the big city. And just so you know, I’m the ‘good’ influence here.”
“You mean ‘til Steven comes,” Rita said with a ruby-red pout. “Where is he, anyway? I thought you said he was coming.”
Joe eyed Rita with an off-center smile. “Don’t get your knickers in a knot, Rita, you’ll get your chance with him. Our poster boy’ll be here, as promised.”
“Rita leaned on the table with a grin, a hint of cleavage peeking out the ruffle of her floral dress. “You better be right, Walsh, ‘cause I spent a fortune on this dress, even at a thrift shop.”
“Trust me, I’m just as anxious as you for Steven to get here. I work with the guy day in, day out, remember? Nobody knows better than me that all work and no play makes O’Connor a dull boy. He’s been nothing but nose to the grindstone since he broke up with Maggie, and I for one am tired of it.” He raised his glass to Rita. “So that’s where you come in.”
O’Connor? Maggie’s old flame?? Annie began to choke, finally sneezing to clear her air.
“Bless you.” Joe winked.
“Where I come in, huh?” Rita grinned. “Back in Steven’s arms again, I hope.” Her smile went flat. “Where I’d still be today if not for Kennedy.”
“Maggie’s history, Reets—don’t let her spoil your evening.”
“Bad history,” Rita said with a grunt. “Wish I could tip your flask to forget.”
“Ooops—how rude! “Joanie lifted her skirt to reveal a flask in her garter belt. “Forgot to offer a touch of giggle water to Annie and Peg. How ‘bout it, girls?”
The whites of Annie’s eyes expanded. “Uh … no, thank you,” she squeaked.
“Sure, why not?” Peggy said without hesitation.
“You’re drinking alcohol?” Annie’s voice was a rasp in Peggy’s ear, eyes glazed with shock as if she’d tipped the flask herself.
“Not much, you goose, just enough to feel tipsy,” Peggy whispered while Joanie spiked her drink. “Sure you don’t want some? You could use it after the scare you had, you know.”
Annie shook her head, suddenly feeling way in over her head.
Joanie offered Rita a sympathetic smile. “If you ask me, Maggie was never good enough for Steven. Too independent and definitely too wild. Steven O’Connor’s the old-fashioned type who needs a good girl.”
Annie bolted her Dr. Pepper, a frown pinching her brow. Hey, Maggie was a good girl …
“Then how’d she land him in the first place is what I wanna know?” Rita said in a pout.
Joanie chuckled. “She was a pastor’s kid, remember? Flirty, yes, but white as the driven snow when Steven met her.” She winked. “Come on, Reets, nobody knows better than you how hard it is to say no to a guy like Steven.”
“Tell me something I don’t know.” Issuing a heavy sigh, Irene slumped, chin in hand. “Even so, I never liked her from the get-go. Too blonde, too loud, too much of a flirt to suit me.”
Joanie chuckled. “You just hated her ‘cause she had Steven wrapped around her little finger.”
“That’s not all she had him wrapped around,” Rita said with a grunt.
“You got that right,” Joanie said. “Rumor is she gave him her all.”
Her all? Annie blinked, refusing to think about what that meant, but feeling the heat of her blush clear up to her bangs.
“Hey, guys, knock it off—you’re embarrassing Annie.” Joe popped peanuts in his mouth, his tone matching the scowl on his face. “Those rumors are way off, and Maggie’s one of my best friends, so leave her be. Besides, she may have had her influence, but it was Steven who called the shots. And don’t forget, he broke it off with her.” Joe leaned toward Rita, brows knit. “I hope you’re not drinking, ‘cause he’ll taste it in your kiss and you won’t stand a chance.”
“Are you kidding?” Rita splayed a hand to her chest. “After he read me the riot act last time? Not on your life—I know what a straight arrow he is.”
“Good.” Joe tossed another peanut as his gaze landed on Annie. All at once he jumped up, his smile apologetic. “Gosh, where are my manners—one Dr. Pepper coming right up.”
Peggy watched Joe stride to the bar, then leaned close to Annie. “Joe and Steven are such sweethearts,” she said with a sigh. “Gorgeous too, not to mention dangerous.”
“Dangerous?” Annie squinted at her friend. “But Joe seems so nice ...”
Peggy’s chuckle rumbled against Annie’s ear. “They’re federal agents, Annie, armed to the teeth with both guns and charm. But trust me—that’s not what makes ‘em ‘dangerous.’”
Annie blinked. Then what does?
“Here you go, Dr. Pepper Girl, one bottled addiction.” Joe plopped a glass down.
“Thanks, Joe.” She took a swig, excitement bubbling as much as the soda in her glass.
“My pleasure, kiddo.” He returned to his seat, then suddenly jerked straight up, waving a hand in the air. “Okay, Rita, smile pretty,” he muttered under his breath, “you’re on.” He rose to his feet. “Well, speak of the devil. Where’ve you been, O’Connor, you’re late.”
Annie stiffened, an odd mix of dread and curiosity roiling at the prospect of meeting Steven O’Connor—the man who broke Maggie’s heart. Sucking in a deep breath, she exhaled before turning around, going for a nonchalant air. Unfortunately, both nonchalance and air died a quick death when blood drained from her face faster than the liquor from Rita’s flask.
“Sorry, Joe, had to call the precinct about a couple of thugs.” The “officer” who’d saved her from Harv and Grove casually slipped his jacket over an empty chair, and she caught a peek of a shoulder holster before he buttoned his open vest. “They were hassling some silly kid who didn’t have a brain in her head.”
Her gasp forced Dr. Pepper up her nose, and she started to hack. Peggy slapped her on the back. “You okay? Gosh, you act like Joanie spiked your drink.”
“Hi, Steven, it’s been way too long.” Rita all but glowed. “We’ve missed you.”
“Speak for yourself, Rita.” Joe plucked Steven’s jacket off the chair and tossed it across the table “I see way too much of him as it is—he’s all yours for the evening.”
Steven laughed, deep blue eyes sparkling as he extended a hand to Stan. “Hey, buddy, long time, no see. And, Celia, you still dating this guy? I thought you’d wise up by now.”
“Just waiting for you to come around, Steven, so just give me the word.” Celia ruffled Stan’s hair with a smirk.
Chuckling, Steven turned. “So, Joanie, how’ve you—” He stopped, jaw dangling at the sight of Annie. “You,” he whispered, the smile dissolving on his face. His hands settled loosely on his hips while the blue eyes narrowed. “These are your friends?”
Blood whooshed into Annie’s cheeks, burning so much, she thought she would peel.
“You know Annie?” Joe hiked a brow while Annie died a thousand deaths.
Steven jerked a thumb her way. “Yeah—she’s the brainless kid I was telling you about, the one I had to rescue from those two thugs.” He shifted his gaze back to Annie and shook his head. “A female walking this neighborhood alone at night—that’s just plain stupid.”
“Hey, she isn’t stupid,” Peggy defended, “Annie’s class valedictorian.”
The edge of Steven’s lip curled. “Yeah, book smart, street stupid.”
The heat in Annie’s face went straight to her temper. “Well, at least my brains are in my head, officer, and not in my gun.”
“Whoo-ee, Steven,” Stan said with a chuckle. “I think she just called you a dumb cop.”
“Come on you two,” Joe said with a grin, “let’s kiss and make up. And you, partner …” Joe aimed a pointed look at Steven, “need to lighten up. We’re not on the clock here, you know, so let’s have a good time.” He shot Annie a sheepish grin. “Sorry, Annie, this guy doesn’t get out all that much, but once you get to know him, he’s really not so bad. Right, Rita?”
Rita’s smile went to work as she leaned to give Steven the benefit of her new dress. “I’ll vouch for that.” She patted the chair beside her. “Be a good boy, Steven, and come sit down.”
Steven didn’t budge, gaze flicking from Rita to Annie while a storm brewed in his eyes.
“Okay, then let’s start over.” Joe directed an arm to Annie. “This is Peggy’s friend, Annie, and she’s new to Boston, straight from Badger, Iowa, which,” he said with a lift of brows, “is probably why she didn’t know not to walk the pier alone at night.” He grinned at Annie with a quick nod at Steven. “This is my partner at the Prohibition Bureau, Steven O’Connor, a stickler for the law who was actually a lot more fun in college when he broke it on a regular basis.”
Prohibition officers? Annie gaped, stunned Joe hadn’t blinked an eye over Joanie’s flask. She noted the hard line of Steven O’Connor’s jaw and guessed it wouldn’t be the same with him.
“So what do you say, you two—truce?” Joe glanced from one to the other.
Despite a wobble in her legs, Annie rose and held out a shaky hand. “I’m sorry we got off on the wrong foot, offi—uh, Steven. I hope we can be friends.”
“Atta, girl, Annie.” Joe turned to his partner and arched a brow. “O’Connor?”

Steven stared, irritated the smart-mouthed kid he’d rescued in the street could not only set off his temper, but apparently his pulse as well. He scowled. In the dark, she’d looked like a kid, barely fifteen, but here in the intimacy of the low-lit ballroom setting and without the baggy sweater, she appeared older, cute even, aglow with an innocence that rankled. His eyes narrowed. She didn’t belong here, mixing with a crowd that would only set her on the wrong path. She was seventeen, for pity’s sake, and the wide green eyes void of makeup and dewy cheeks growing rosier by the second told him loud and clear she was nothing more than a naïve Pollyanna. Chaste, innocent, everything the women around her were not, and it chafed that he found himself in the unlikely role of big brother. To protect her, to steer her away from all this, to save her from ending up hard and loose like all the women he knew.
Women like Maggie. Regret stabbed immediately, as always whenever he thought of the woman who’d stolen his heart. But then he’d stolen her innocence in college, in the back seat of Joe’s father’s car, and no matter how hard he tried, nothing could erase that stain of guilt from his soul. Not breaking up with her, not giving up drinking, not even pursuing the law in an effort to vindicate his past. His throat tightened. A past that had almost cost him the life of his father.
“Ahem …” Joe cleared his throat.
Steven jolted, suddenly aware he was staring. Forcing a smile, he gripped her hand. “I’m sorry, too. Professional vice, I guess. When I see someone in danger, it just puts me on edge.”
A soft shade of pink dusted her cheeks as her small hand slipped from his. “That’s understandable. And thank you again for coming to my rescue.” She tucked a strand of reddish blonde hair over her ear, an action that seemed both sweet and sensual at the same time. The motion drew his attention to the soft curls that trailed her shoulders, a stark contrast to the fashionable bobs of the day. Further evidence of her innocence, he thought with a press of his jaw, and his protective instincts notched up. Without meaning to, his gaze traveled down, taking in generous curves previously hidden by a sweater, and when his eyes met hers once again, the flaming blush in her cheeks tugged a grin to his lips. “Besides,” he said, flicking Joe on the head, “I always get a little testy when I see a nice girl like you mixed up with trouble like this.”
“Hey, need I remind you that you used to be ‘trouble’ too?” He winked at Rita. “And … if I have my way, you will be again.” He poured Coca-cola in a fresh glass and handed it to Steven. “Here—take the badge off, O’Connor, and let’s show these ladies a good time.”
“Speaking of which,’” Joanie said with a drawl, “how ‘bout a touch of giggle water to take you back to the good, ‘ol days?”
Steven’s smile soured. “You know better than that, Joanie. College is over, and I’m in the Justice Department now, a working stiff sworn to uphold the law.”
Joe grunted. “’Stiff’ being the operative word. Come on, Steven, lighten up. Prohibition will be dead by the end of the year, so what’s the big deal? We’re not on the payroll now.”
Huffing out a sigh, Steven ambled over to sit next to Rita. “Obviously.” He caught Joe’s pleading glance and exhaled again, realizing his best friend was probably right … again. He was stiff. And dull and boring and downright miserable. He stared at Joe and Stan’s open-necked shirts and suddenly yanked at his tie and shoved it in his coat pocket, loosening his own shirt. An ocean breeze from the window cooled the sweat on his chest, and all at once he realized how stagnant his life had become. “You used to be the life of the party, O’Connor,” Joe had said when he’d strong-armed earlier in the day. “What the devil happened?”
His smile thinned as he rolled up the sleeves of his shirt. Maggie happened.
“Mmm, get comfortable, why don’t you?” Rita said, wisping painted nails through the dark hairs on his arm, and for the first time in while, he missed spending time with a woman.
“My thoughts exactly,” he said as he tugged her to her feet and led her to the floor. He pulled her into his arms, and the scent of Chanel No. 5 toyed with his senses. They moved slowly, the mellow sound of Hold Me soothing his nerves and draining the tension from his neck. Exactly what I have in mind, he thought, the lyrics underscoring his resolve. He rested his head against hers, pushing aside all thoughts of Maggie.
“It’s nice to be in your arms again, Steven,” Rita whispered, her husky tone reminding him of the fling they’d had during one of his breakups with Maggie.
“It’s nice to have you here, Rita.”
She stared up, lips parted and an invitation in her eyes, and a once-familiar desire kindled deep in his gut. It’d been too long since he’d been drawn to a woman, and he found he no longer wanted to avoid it. Over two years on the high road had made him a lonely man, one who didn’t feel anything for any woman, nor wanted to. But with Rita so close, so willing, he could feel it now, and he couldn’t deny it felt good, natural, to be here again. Eyes lidded, she slowly lifted on tiptoe to brush her lips against his, and upon contact, her arms swept his neck, drawing him down. A forgotten desire flamed and he deepened the kiss. The taste of her intoxicated him and with a silent groan, he clutched her so tightly, he felt her breathe when she molded close.
“I’ve missed you,” she whispered, and he closed his eyes to enjoy the feel of her body against his, the clean smell of Breck shampoo in her hair, the scent of her skin.
“Now, see? This isn’t so bad, is it, is it O’Connor?”
Steven opened his eyes to see Joe grinning at him with Annie in his arms, and for some reason, his neck stiffened all over again, dampening his good mood. You’re an idiot, O’Connor, what do you care? He tightened his hold on Rita and deflected his feelings with a cocky grin. “Oh, it’s bad all right—bad for my work ethic. I could get used to this.”
“Mmm … me too.” Rita laid her head on his chest.
“That’s the whole plan,” Joe said. “To get you back into the land of the living so you don’t drag me down too.” He winked at Rita and spun Annie away, holding her closer than Steven liked. His lips compressed into a near scowl. Leave her alone, Joe, she’s just a kid.
The dance ended and Joe took Annie back to the table, allowing Steven to breathe easier and enjoy Rita in his arms. They danced to several more songs before Steven escorted her back, feeling more relaxed than he had in a long while. “Thanks, Rita,” he said, “I needed that.”
“Me too, Steven.” She pressed a soft kiss to his cheek. “Don’t go anywhere, okay?” She gave Joanie a secret smile and inclined her head toward the ladies’ room. “Want to come?”
“Sure,” Joanie said with a ready grin, then followed as Rita led the way.
Steven leaned back, arm draped loosely over Rita’s chair as he squinted at Joe. He nodded toward Annie’s empty spot. “Where’s the kid?”
Joe’s gaze shifted to the dance floor. “Peggy’s dancing with some guy I don’t know and Annie is with …” He hesitated, his mouth leveling flat. “Brubaker.”
Steven sat up. “Brubaker?” He leaned in, fingers gripped to the table. “And you let her?”
Joe sighed and downed his Coke, slumping back in his chair. “And how are we supposed to stop her, Steven? We have no control over her. Besides, it’s only a dance.”
“She’s a kid, Walsh,” Steven said sharply, his jaw hard as rock. “For pity’s sake, she’s still wet behind the ears without a lick of sense to know that Brubaker’s a snake.” His eyes scanned the crowd, seeing Peggy, but no sign of Annie. “Where is she?” he snapped.
“Why? What are you going to do? Make a scene?” Joe slanted forward. “You know you have no patience where Brubaker’s concerned, so why borrow trouble?”
Steven rose. “One, because I flat-out don’t like the guy and two? Because I’m not gonna let that slime ruin another girl’s reputation, especially some kid from Podunk, Iowa who doesn’t know which end is up.” He slammed in his chair and tempered his anger with a stiff smile. “Come on, Joe, isn’t this what you’re always harping about—for me to get back in the game?”
Joe belted back his drink with a scowl. “Yeah, but with the ladies, not your fists. You’re a law official, O’Connor, not a vigilante. You’re supposed to head off trouble, not start it.”
“Exactly,” Steven said with another quick scan of the floor. “And that’s exactly what I intend to do.” He jerked his jacket off the chair and put it on, shooting Joe a reassuring grin. “Don’t worry, partner, you have my word—I won’t throw the first punch.” He took a quick stab at the peanuts and tossed a handful in his mouth. “But if it comes to that?” He offered a quick salute. “You can bet I’ll deliver the last.”

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